So it’s been a while since I’ve written on here. I noticed recently that people actually still read–and comment on– this thing so I decided that I’ll keep on writing, or at least try. After summer 2012 I went through a little bit of a writer’s crisis. I was completely at a crossroads concerning where I wanted to take my writing. On one hand, I was sick of writing about myself. I was noticing repetition in my experiences. Cycling is well, cyclical, after all. And on the other hand, I cherished the catharsis that thinking about ones experiences can bring, and I didn’t want to stop that sort of thing either. But what ended up happening was I just stopped altogether.
Something else happened though, that I might as well bring up–I got a job. In the bike industry. This, above all things, was more crippling writing-wise than anything. I was afraid of what my perspective might bring. I didn’t want the “insider’s” perspective. I still don’t want it. Lots of people like that though–they want to know what the insider knows, the latest rumblings and grumbling of the people who are just that much closer to the heart of the sport. But when I read something by an “insider” it feels too jaded, rehearsed, structured, and opaque. So much so that anyone who’s not on the inside feels that there’s something missing–and that’s why they end up wanting that insider’s perspective. Unfortunately a real opinion doesn’t often get you praise (see the comment section of James Huang’s rant on Philippe Gilbert’s bike). It’s the catch 22 of the cycling journalism crowd.
So where am I now? I work full time in the bike industry, still training and gearing up to race for another year. I’m thrilled about racing this year. I can’t wait. Absolutely cannot wait. Lots of things have changed for me, but for now, I’ll just stick to what’s happening and what I find along the way. It’s going to be a great year.